This may or may not have something to do with the fact that when I was stranded in Boston, I watched the entire Best Ink marathon. It is really impressive what a really professional tattoo artist can do.
I then went into the tail spin that is thinking about my life and my journey.
I started thinking about how I got to where I was. All of the times that I put myself out there. All the things I did that scared me, but I am so happy I did in the end. Here are a few.
I went on a trip to Italy and Greece by myself. Trip of a lifetime. It was literally breath taking.
I decided to jump off of the teaching train that I had put my college career and then the following four years into creating. Scary. I now am doing better than ever, so happy in doing so many fun things in sales. I get to work with my incredible father and learn every day from my mentor. I have met really interesting people, made presentations in front of CFO's and COLD CALLED A TON. And succeeded!
I gave Ryan my number because I had such a crush on him. It was my last day of student teaching and I figured, what's the worst that can happen? He doesn't call me? I will get over it. So I left him my number, he called me, and now in 5 months, WE'RE GETTING MARRIED!
PS, I am having some anxiety of getting rid of my last name. Anyone else go through that?
Although not quite as big, I went to a Caveliers game when I was working in Cleveland because the Heat were in town. I bought a ticket for myself and enjoyed the experience by myself. Awesome!
There are many things that I haven't done and who knows where those would have lead me.
Even when I am traveling for work, there are so many reasons that you can come up with to not put yourself out there. You have to hear a lot of no's before you hear a yes. If you never put yourself out there for the no's, you won't ever get to the yes!
As I am thinking all of this, my wheels were turning into "how can I turn this into a tattoo?" My sister is a very talented artist so I asked her to draw something up for me. While the actual drawing is still being worked on, here is what we have so far.
"In order to reach your dreams, you must first take a leap of faith"
Under that will be a bird jumping off a branch spreading it's wings getting ready to fly.
I am so excited! Now where to have it tattoos on my body....
I had major anxiety about getting rid of my last name, so I just didn't do it! (I wrote a bit about it here: http://www.thebenroecks.com/thebenroecks.com/post/2013/03/12/Last-name)
ReplyDeleteBut I know some women who loved getting rid of their maiden names and some women who still hate that they 'had' to switch! I think it's normal to have some anxiety around it though :-)